Hi worms,
So school is starting tomorrow for me. Did it just get hotter in here or is that just me? Personally, the first day back to school is extremely stressful for me, even though there’s really no reason for it to be. What’s even more idiotic is that I literally only have one class tomorrow (like wow my life is so hard) and I still feel like I’ll die. I do have anxiety and it goes the extra mile in these types of situations. I know I won’t know anyone in this class, which will force me to talk to people and pretend I’m totally chill when in reality I’m dying. Not to mention this one class is Speech. I heard in some classes they make you get up and just talk about random facts about you on the first day, which weirds me out. To be honest, who cares? Like wow you like pizza? So do I, and that kid and that kid and oh wow look at that, nearly every kid in here. I don’t want that to sound rude or anything, but literally I couldn’t care less that you like to go surfing on the weekends (lol I’m still salty towards surfers since high school) (lol salty..ocean..okay I’ll stop).
I also know for a fact that I’ll have an anxiety attack in my car before class. Not only will this happen tomorrow, but pretty much every day for the first few weeks. That’s a lot of freaking out, and honestly who has the time?
Overall, Speech isn’t going to kill me, but the combo of all my classes just might. Last semester was really brutal, with a whopping 17 units (12 being full time student)(yah I don’t know what I was thinking either). At least this semester it dropped down to 15.5 units; mind you I’m still not jumping for joy or anything. I think I’m semi-traumatized by last semester, which just makes me more and more nervous.
Not to mention I’ve been having weird-ass dreams lately about college. Now, I normally have dreams every night, but these dreams I’ve been having are not very normal at all. I only remember 2 of them, thank god. The first one was about me going to a nudist college (is there such a thing?) and they all hated me and stalked me because I wore clothes. In addition, they would break into my dorm at night and act really creepy, like they wanted to kill me, haha cool. The other dream was that I had a really mean teacher who assigned me a seat right behind a fan that was directly facing me and forcing my eyes closed. She kept asking me questions but I was like ‘bish I can’t see’. So yah, obviously I’m totally cool with going back to college and totally not stressed at all haha kill me(:
Anyways, I also want to continue blogging while going to school fulltime and maintaining a social life, which actually sounds impossible now that I think of it. I’m going to try my very best to keep up, because I truly love the blogosphere. This blog has become very important to me this last month, and I don’t want to just throw it all away. Even though I won’t post everyday, I do plan to post at least once a week. I think that’s doable, but I can’t wait to be proven wrong one week and feel so bad. So don’t quote me on this! But I’m going to try people!
If you got this far, you’re a babe. Thanks for reading my rambles.
-Alli
I want to say “I’m sure you’ll be fine,” but I understand that sometimes someone can be really anxious about something that seems perfectly normal to someone else. I know this from experience. School isn’t what makes me anxious – in fact, school was one of the few things that I always felt good at, and that is part of the reason why I became a teacher – but I get what you’re saying. Do the best you can, do what you need to but don’t push yourself. I’m here if you ever need an unbiased complete stranger to talk to. 🙂
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Aw thank you so much(: I really appreciate it💜
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Speech should not be a challenge for you. And I like the last line😋(by the way you were the first to get there though). The triangle makes so much sense, I loved it. All the best and keep rocking and blogging.
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Haha thank you! And yah the triangle is super relatable haha
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Loved you post, all the best for tomorrow 😊😊
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Thanks so much!💜
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You’re welcome ☺😊
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Good luck back at school!x
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Thank you! I’m gonna need it haha😂
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You should pick up a book on dream anyalisis and figure out what those dreams mean!
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Haha yah I had another dream last night where my cat and I got matching tattoos. What even😂😂
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Lol! I had a dream last night that I had to glue a Panda bear’s tail back on! Wha? 😉
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HAHA I love that😂
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Very nice post. I know how busy one can be during school time especially those who take school serious. I wish you a great school season. Let me inform you that I have nominated you for the Lovely Solidarity Blogger Award. You may check it out here: https://yoursuccessinspirer.com/2017/01/17/3rd-edition-lovely-solidarity-blogger-award/
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Oh wow thank you so much! This means a lot!😊💜
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I know it’s easier said than done, but don’t stress so much – wow so helpful I know. No but seriously, the scenarios we make up in our heads are 1000 times worst than what actually happens in real life. Give yourself a little bit more credit because you seem really nice (I actually laughed at your “salty” joke).
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Haha thank you! And yah I just got back from speech and it was actually really fun😊 wish I read this sooner haha
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Goodluck at school, and don’t worry about not posting regularly. We are not going anywhere as your blog is awesome, so so e things are really worth the wait. Sometimes real,life catches up to you…and that’s okay. Take care, and I am sure things will go well for you 😊
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Aw I really needed to hear that😊thank you so much you’re the best!
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Good luck I know the feel x
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thank you! ❤
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You’re rambles are really sweet and so lovely to read. I’m sending heaps of love and all the luck to you x
Abby | https://seafoaming.com
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Aw thank you so much(: it means a lot to me💜
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I’ve had a number of friends affected by anxiety back in high school, I understand how you feel. Sending you love and positive thoughts!
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Thank you so much💜 I really appreciate it😊
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Don’t mention it 🙂
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I know I’m late but I just found your blog! How was it?
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Welcome! Haha and it went very well actually(: met a lot of cool people and all my professors are amazing so yah! Thanks for wondering(:
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That’s great and you’re welcome!
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